Introduction to DBSK/THSK/TVXQ

For those who don’t know, Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK/THSK/TVXQ) is a Korean boyband consists of 5 members, considered as the most popular idol group in Asia. If any of you would like to know more about them, feel free to google, you’ll find tons of things related to them. The most informative website I find so far is sharingyoochun.wordpress.com

As it would take me years to actually reach the amount of work those 3 girls of SYC has done, I wouldn’t even bother.

Yeah, they are my latest obsession. Can’t live a day without seeing something about them. Their videos and stuff have filled up my hard-drive. So hard to select which to keep, which not to. Just looking at their smile makes me happy, especially my dearest Smiley Baby, Yoo Chun. Yeah, you can say I have a bias for him.

He is simply too cute (please don’t say anything if you disagree)

He is a cry baby. He would be the first one to cry whenever it comes to touching moments. How I just love those moments…*dreamy* He makes me wanna protect him (I know, I know, I have a shouta-complex). He kinda reminds me of my ex-boyfriend, only cuter. My ultimate dream is to meet and end up with him *rolling* I’m not the family type though, what the hell am I to do when he propose?

*get bricked* Ha ha, I know, yeah right, as if.

But then again, this is MY world. LOL.

A Flame that Flows

This is my 5th blog, I think. I keep opening and closing blogs. I like signing up to things, get to know new people, but as soon as I start to feel uncomfortable, I leave. It’s like opening a door, just a little, to peek outside and then end up running away from that little opening.

I have that bad habit of constantly wanting to be seen, but scared to get out.

It’s just that, I don’t really believe in living true in front of  anyone. Nobody out there has the ability of accepting everything. Everybody wants things to go according to their wish. And wishes do crush each other.

Laying low is not something enjoyable. But is does make somebody else enjoy their day a little more. The best way to fit in in this world is knowing how to let people enjoy themselves in one’s presence. That is what I’m working hard on. People always say I don’t have a clue as to how to be aware of things around me. Either I try too hard, or I don’t try at all.

Once in a while, I try to show some of the things I consider to be “the real me”, but back up in the process. It’s not entirely true that I don’t want others to “See” me. It’s just that, when you are so close to somebody that they think they know you, showing them something totally contradictory is somewhat…awkward. What would happen after that? Will they go on being with you as ever, or stay disgustedly far away? Of course there are neutral reactions too, but then again, what would happen? And how should you react to that?

I am a coward, I’m afraid. I don’t really have the nerve to be the main role in even my dreams.

It’s not like I’m an emo. I’m well aware of what I’m capable of, and I do know how to live up to all the expectations laid on me. Only the mental and emotional ways of mine are a little off-course. I don’t really trust anything good in me.

So, here, in this space, in this blog, again, I try to show myself.

Please, somebody, out there, see me.